When I was younger, my thought process was so much more chaotic, but with creation and learning instead of self-doubt and insecurity.
I didn't yet feel or understand or regard with much care the opinions or judgments of others which allowed me to be more creative, and I believe, ultimately happy. I focused very little on my outward appearance and so much on what my brain was telling me and the results were fantastic. My knowledge was almost exclusively for me.
The older I get, the less I care about the opinions of others and it allows a creativity and a silliness to come out of me I haven't felt since childhood and I love that.
It helps to have amazing people in my life who champion this kind of free and individualistic thinking. I mean, one of my dude friends is an Emory/Harvard educated doctor and we had a morning filled with brunch at the good gay bar, copious amounts of laughter, air drum solos, figure skating and early 90's hip hop, which we then followed up with watching the Lego Movie. Then after that, we grabbed lunch and had an amazing discussion about selecting thoughts and whether positive self affirmations work or if it's all a matter of time. Such fun mixed with such smarts. Very brunch. So Lego. Just a really good day.
Really reminded me of childhood, but so much better as I have my health and a bank account.
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