Be Present. Especially At Traffic Lights.

Don't you guys think it's an amazing time to be alive???

Is it because I'm in my 30's and I had always been told that these would be the most important years of my life physically, sexually and mentally? Is it because I'm surrounded with friends and love and beauty? Is it because I work out so often I have constant endorphins pumpin'? I have no idea, but my little brain and heart runneth over with joy. I'm about to turn 37 and I honestly feel happier, smarter, stronger and healthier than I did at 27. Benjamin Button much?

Even in this shittiest of winters I can remember since being a small child, I'm not even really grumpy about it. I just strap on the Uggs every day and granny-drive my way to work at 30mph max. #goaroundmefucker. Maybe because snow falling is beautiful. Maybe because the cold, brisk air feels shocking and fresh and empowering. Maybe because it's fun to picture that first day in spring when I'm muddy and dirty on the Prairie with the animals and there's sunshine on my face and the smell of growing grass in my nose and the taste of cheap beer in my mouth.

Maybe it's being surrounded by wonderful, smart, diverse, hilarious friends both new and old that make me feel so loved and special and present. Maybe it's that smile he gives me in the middle of the night when he wakes up and realizes I'm still in bed and I haven't gone to work yet. Maybe it's being in my office with my candle burning, getting stuff done (or blogging).

Maybe it's shedding the past and not worrying about the future, but soaking up every second of the present.

Maybe it's the fact that a truck blew through a red light this morning and almost smashed into a bus which would have then smashed into me. Live in the moment.